Procastinating, acting dumb: well not bad at all

well, changing your perpective, surely gives you the other(maybe better) view.

Yes, here I find myself into the second day of writing in this blog. This tool really seems like a pensieve to store all your thought and views. I would love to express myself to the full extent possible. But, cannot. Personal identity theft and stalking being the most abused part of all these digital content. As i started my formal move on process yesterday, it seems like I have not quite got to the pace i really wanted to. But, things seems to go on right now, as i scratched my zero position yesterday.

No matter how intelligent or learned one becomes, he is surely dumb inside. Take for instance, you would in an instant lose your understanding of all the physics theory you learn, when you are encountered by some strong personal attraction to something. You become so obsessed and greedy to that thing that you would hardly believe that you could be doing the thing you would not really think of doing it. The way I would like to call this is human impulse of doing things and getting into a impulsive reaction to the number of stimuli that shapes us.

This is one aspect that makes man prone to errors and misjudgement, while at the same time making your life more interesting as a result of the unpredictable path of life. I have been seeking for perfect things. But, it seems to be so scarce. But, what I have been actually lacking is my effort to make things perfect; at least literally.

I cannot be perfect. I can try to be one. And I know I will never try enough to actually be any where near the domain of being perfect. Even though, I love the goal and planning I do to make my to do lists and high ambitious work load. Then, the move on process comes in. But, this time I go onto differnt state of myself, sorely lacking the sincerity with which I proposed things. I have laughed many times, cried many times to myself, for being so stupid enought to always fall behind. But, no matter what, there is always hope in me. But, when you start loosing belief in yourself then the effects acts negatively to you. You start neglecting things and problems as if they were never there. Like, you know you have to pay your bill. But, you pretend you do not have to. But, it is the reality. And, when you come out from your own little unsuccessful cocoon, you get so frightened by it that you even loose the ability you might have at the first shot.

So, what I am basically try to say is that you cannot runaway from any problem. It is our human side to shield oneself in false fantasy, which is so good. And, I have to appreciate this passion of human beings which remarkably keeps a mental balance on people to let them relax. So, I go back to the beginning of this post. No matter how much you know, you are still dumb. And its good too. You should not be always in a problem to solve it. In fact, it is nice to stroll around, being ignorant of things, acting dumb, and then freshly reacting to the problem with your renewed sense of things. That works fine to me.

I keep pushing things until the deadline. And yet, when it seems impossible to complete the work, and right at this time when i curse myself of being so dumb, Iget inextinguisable power of doing the work with all might and magic. And it doesnt turn out to be that bad at all. Or, should i say even great; given, how much i worked on it.