Niraj Shrestha Website

Really, it has been almost ever since my third blog.
Nevertheless, I have not forgotten about it.
It is 7 in the morning. The morning sun rays are almost inside my room. I know that everyone is sleeping. But, something has kept me up so late tonight. Well, it is not that big-o-deal. I guess it was the unnecessary discourse with a good friend.
I do not even know, why in the first place I got out of control. When, it comes controlling my anger, I think, I fail the first.

I was trying to gulp all the comments. But, it all got started, building up to my volcanic eruption of words. Really Bad Words!

Hehe,

Anyways, my life has been moving on. Obstacles have been getting bigger and bigger, while my effor to tackle them has been diminishing day by day.
What should I do?

Sleep less? and work more?
I cannot sacrifice sleep. I have to sleep 7 hours a day. So, I think I have to work more. Definately, being responsible and time consicous.

That is the two keyword for today, Responsible & Time Consious. My Lord, if you exist, give me thy power to replenish my hunger and thirst to move on... on to being responsible. Watever!

Anyways, I have nothing to say today. So, I am just bitching about all bluf. But, here I present you folks, if any, my brand new Website called: Niraj Shrestha Website. Check it out!


Niraj Shrestha Website


And Warning to Marwan!: Do not even think of doing the crap with the website, Also to Zach and Rezwan, if you guys are have something up your sleeves. No matter what!
-Niraj Shrestha
Tufts University

Premonition!

Hey! The third day of bloggin here is quite a success in terms of actual blog publishing. But, not quite so, for my own purpose of why I was blogging. I wanted to get in track. Get in shape for all of what is going on with me. Even though, there is no noticable change in what I have been doing, which is so difficult. I feel like there is good things coming.

At least, writing here gives me some responsibilities and willingness to work forward my original keep moving on startegy. Let's say. I cleaned my room today. But, again, I would have to do that on a daily basis or else I will be left with the same mess once again. The same thing can be said about my work. I must emphasize everytime and not only a block of time when I get so inspired.

Inspiration really creates a big role on how I am going to live my life or where I am heading to. And, inspiration comes mostly from your circle of friends, respectful figure or as smaller nifty things such as reading or watching something or just say listening.

I get inspired a lot. And, I immediately work on to put that inspiration into effect. And, I have seen the result. The result largely depends on whether I immediately, moved forward on my job, or, just passed time slowly moving forward. In the former case, I have been much successful. So, this is one lesson I learnt, which i would love to share. If you have any idea or anything you want, jote it down quickly on something, or do it right away. Be it just replying a quick reply to your email, if you do the task right away, you are likely to succeed.

We are so complex form of being that, we tend to get so disorganized. And, the more disorganized you get, the more out of controll you are. And, you start loosing your inspiration and jumping into lofty ambitions which only gives false hopes and dissappointments. So, the first thing that a struggling student could do is to get organized. I love using electronic calendars to make a list of To Dos and Events and Tasks list, which keeps you so organized. Even writing on a 'post it' note is helpful.

So, with these basics in your arsenal, along with the most important inspiration or hope, you could be moving on, and on. You might grab a taste of success. But, do not mistake that to stop of work at all. Eating of food never stops; even though you eat as much as you can one day, you have to take food every now and then. Apply the same strategy with your study and work habits.

Then, it is just the start of competiting in this tense neck to neck competitive world.

Procastinating, acting dumb: well not bad at all

well, changing your perpective, surely gives you the other(maybe better) view.

Yes, here I find myself into the second day of writing in this blog. This tool really seems like a pensieve to store all your thought and views. I would love to express myself to the full extent possible. But, cannot. Personal identity theft and stalking being the most abused part of all these digital content. As i started my formal move on process yesterday, it seems like I have not quite got to the pace i really wanted to. But, things seems to go on right now, as i scratched my zero position yesterday.

No matter how intelligent or learned one becomes, he is surely dumb inside. Take for instance, you would in an instant lose your understanding of all the physics theory you learn, when you are encountered by some strong personal attraction to something. You become so obsessed and greedy to that thing that you would hardly believe that you could be doing the thing you would not really think of doing it. The way I would like to call this is human impulse of doing things and getting into a impulsive reaction to the number of stimuli that shapes us.

This is one aspect that makes man prone to errors and misjudgement, while at the same time making your life more interesting as a result of the unpredictable path of life. I have been seeking for perfect things. But, it seems to be so scarce. But, what I have been actually lacking is my effort to make things perfect; at least literally.

I cannot be perfect. I can try to be one. And I know I will never try enough to actually be any where near the domain of being perfect. Even though, I love the goal and planning I do to make my to do lists and high ambitious work load. Then, the move on process comes in. But, this time I go onto differnt state of myself, sorely lacking the sincerity with which I proposed things. I have laughed many times, cried many times to myself, for being so stupid enought to always fall behind. But, no matter what, there is always hope in me. But, when you start loosing belief in yourself then the effects acts negatively to you. You start neglecting things and problems as if they were never there. Like, you know you have to pay your bill. But, you pretend you do not have to. But, it is the reality. And, when you come out from your own little unsuccessful cocoon, you get so frightened by it that you even loose the ability you might have at the first shot.

So, what I am basically try to say is that you cannot runaway from any problem. It is our human side to shield oneself in false fantasy, which is so good. And, I have to appreciate this passion of human beings which remarkably keeps a mental balance on people to let them relax. So, I go back to the beginning of this post. No matter how much you know, you are still dumb. And its good too. You should not be always in a problem to solve it. In fact, it is nice to stroll around, being ignorant of things, acting dumb, and then freshly reacting to the problem with your renewed sense of things. That works fine to me.

I keep pushing things until the deadline. And yet, when it seems impossible to complete the work, and right at this time when i curse myself of being so dumb, Iget inextinguisable power of doing the work with all might and magic. And it doesnt turn out to be that bad at all. Or, should i say even great; given, how much i worked on it.

Initial Stone to mark the beginning.

Here I am, scracthing a mark, as I move on to this blogging world.

I have been moving on and on in circles. I have been trying to get to the linear uplifting pace, but, just cannot hold on to the tangent of my curvers, rather descending into the curves. I build some momentum as I descend down the circle, to try to just move up away from the circle as I come up. But, then somehow, the downward component of the momentum just keeps me from going to blistering linearity. And, i keep moving up in circles.

That is why, I am here, to mark the beginning scratch. The zero '0', that I have put forward. I would love to go along the upward axis of this '0'. But, then, there is another dimension of time to it that keeps me moving to the right, to the forward. So, its virtually impossible to only try to go up. The endless, never stopping time, keeps you moving forward to the right. So, the trajectory that you set could be best described as a line moving between the vertical and the horizontal lines.

The ideal line, which would be the perfect example of management of time with your movement would be the linear line moving in such a way that the distances to the vertical and horizontal line is equal. But, it is just too ideal to grab onto the locus of such line. Right now, I define myself to be complex curve, more or less like a circle but not ending into circle, but rather, continuous up and down curve.

So, the curve which is so looping downwards has to ascend along with the increasing time, to wards the idealistic line that I defined above. I have to change and move on to big. Success is only Temporary. Does not guarantee anything than personal triumph. So, keep moving on. But, i could be doing nothing and still moving on as time is always moving. But, its eqaully important that you analyze your vertical movement.

That is why I have scratched a '0' mark. The mark I set, so that I could forget whatever went behind. All the negative slopes and positive upliftments. Here I am, to give some continuity to the old trajectory, while equally working on to move on to the idealistic line.

So, I move my pace right from this post...